2013 was another weird year for me. I got a lot of shit done at the end of it, but I took a lot of shit for most of it. I was miserable. I was living with miserable people and busting my butt to provide for them because no one else could/would work. One of those miserable people totaled my car and I spent all of 2013 trying to compensate for the loss of mobility. It sucked. I also had to distance myself emotionally from people I thought I could rely on, because those same people were using my feelings as a way to manipulate me.
Things started turning around when I found out that my lease was ending. I started looking for rooms for rent online. I left my job at the dealership for something I liked better. I moved into a new place and finally got a car right before New Year
Last year wasn’t all gloom and doom. I got heavy into Tumblr this year, developing quasi-friendships with a few bloggers. I have issues with the Tumblr’s messaging/commenting system (my issue is that it sucks) and most folks tend to look at their dashboard and rarely wander onto people’s blogs unless they ‘know’ them. I’d like to have more conversations with the bloggers that I ‘follow’ and those that ‘follow’ me. But I’m wary of posting pictures of myself and I don’t want to open my blog to anons. I’ve seen too many interesting bloggers receive BS and hate in their inbox from cowardly anons and I don’t want to deal with it.
Tom Hiddleston (Photo credit: Lucie_Ottobruc)
I became a Hiddle-stoner in 2013, thanks to bloggers/fic writers like The_Goddamazon and Cocobutterbella. That actually deserves a post of its own about being an older WoC joining a fandom that seems to be dominated by teen-aged and twenty-something WW on Tumblr.
I started doing a second podcast, called A Bleek Outlook (a-bleek-outlook.tumblr.com
), with @Masteradept. It’s a place for us to rant and squee about geek sh*t, basically. We tend to be focused on PoC’s in genre media, though.
Media Day is not a favorite for Rondo (Photo credit: dgaproductions)
Scheduling time to record, edit, and post these shows is going to be an ongoing concern of mine.
I’ve gotta start working on my debt in 2014. I don’t make a whole lot and I don’t know how I’ll be able to reduce my debt but I guess I can make a plan. I have to start rebuilding my credit and other grown-up stuff. I’ll probably be broke a lot which sucks. Being broke makes me CRANKY.
2014 is also the year that I woman up and start putting my writing out there. I need to see if I have any business doing this writing thing; see if I have anything worth sharing. So I may need to build a writer’s platform that isn’t password-protected. The thought is terrifying. Terrifying but necessary. It also means setting up a writing schedule and finishing the things that I start. That last one is my Achilles’ Heel.
Now that I’m mobile again and starting to free myself of the guilt and baggage that my old housemates dumped on me, fun should be a big part of my 2014. Since I’m an introvert, my fun may not resemble your fun. My fun will probably be quiet and enjoyed in small groups of friends. Basically, I want more joy in 2014.
I want to write more about my hopes/plans for the new year but this post is long enough already. To Be Continued.
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